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HAPPY DEEWAALII

but it was rather boring spending the whole day at home on deepavali which wasn’t a usual thing for my family to do! But the fun part was that the family got to bond i guess. We talked and talked as dad just got back from INDIA ! so spent the whole day crapping and bonding with the RAVENS !

Then went to Shanmugam uncle’s house yesterday ! his house is like so damn nice la. Was chasing my cousin’d up and down the staircase and they just built a BIG BIG pond in their garden and there were like 3 arowanas !! HAHAHAHA ! so cool right ! I SUPPOSE THE OWNER OF GAYATHRI RESTAURANT IS MEANT TO HAVE SUCH A GORGEOUS HOUSE I GUESS ! Then we ate and ate and ate !!!

AND PLAYED FIRE CRACKERS WITH MY COUSINS..

puriyaathe manasu

Ariyaadha Vayasu Puriyaadha Manasu Rendum Ingge Kaadhal Seyyum Neram Adi Aaththi Rendum Parakkuthe Chedi Pola Aasai Molaikkuthe Rendum Ingge Kaadhal Seyyum Neram Vettaveli Pottalile Mazhai Vanthaa Ini Kottaangguchchi Kudaiyaaga Maaridum Thattaampuuchchi Vandiyile Siir Vanthaa Inggu Pattaampuuchchi Vandiyile Uur Varum O-Ho…Ariyaadha Vayasu Puriyaadha Manasu Rendum Ingge Kaadhal Seyyum Neram Pallikkuudaththula Paadam Nadaththala Yaarum Menakkettu Padikkala Entha Kizhaviyum Sonna Kadhaiyilla Kaattula Mettula Kaaththula Kalanthathu Uravukku Idhu Thaan Thalaimai Idha Usuraa Ninaikkum Ilamai Kaadhalil Kadavule Naana Avan Buumikku Thottu Vachchaan Thena Podamaakki Nadamaakki Adi Aaththi Intha Vayasula Ariyaadha Vayasu Puriyaadha Manasu Rendum Ingge Kaadhal Seyyum Neram Karantha Paalaiye Kaambil Puguththida Kanakku Poduthe Rendum Thaan Kora Pullile Metti Senjchi Thaan Kaalule Maattudhu Tholile Saayudhu Uuraiyum Uravaiyum Maranthu -Nadu Kaattula Nadakkuthu Virunthu -Naththa Kuuttule Pugunthu Ini Kudiththanam Nadaththumo Senthu Adi Aaththi Adi Aaththi Adi Aaththi Intha Vayasula Ariyaadha Vayasu Puriyaadha Manasu Rendum Ingge Kaadhal Seyyum Neram Adi Aaththi Rendum Parakkuthe Chedi Pola Aasai Molaikkuthe Rendum Ingge Kaadhal Seyyum Neram

it happens..

When it was not giving attention, i tried grabbing the most i could. But when its now mine to cherish, i just feel nothing anymore. I wanted it so much once but now i just don’t feel the same anymore. I’m more into my own world now.  Nothing much is bothered around me. Was it those little incidents that made me give up. Its hurting to see these things happening to you. When you don’t know who to trust , who to go to. Everything has its own limits.

There are things that can’t be shared. Not even with your family or even your best friends. And if there are people who denies this, TRUST ME SUCH STUFF EXIST and you won’t realise till they really happen.Probably, its meant to be kept inside and hurt you !

I’ve got no say, but there are things happeening which can’t be explained to anyone. It has to sowly fade away or all the other things are going to go off.

I JUST WANT YOU CAUSE I LOVE YOU BABY <3

Sorta fun !

Oh as usual its first day of school after 6 six weeks of holidays and i’m falling asleep in class. my new class or rather my new team is fun ! the two guys are really cute which distracts me most of the time especially their dimple! so was looking through the net and the picture woke me up ! her lips are just so kissable ! and i practically know the indian girls in my class! one is shamini, and karishma kaur is the girl who tore her asses together with us in modern dance auditions ! she is nice though ! and the divya kaur is venkat’s Kandex !

As usual managed to get the 6P and thus we copied and paste! and the china girl beside me is making go crazy feel like just stripping and stuffing her bra into her mouth till she can’t talk !

SUCHA AN EVIL THOUGHT!

go with the flow

So, things were a little unexpected! people kept asking and I just do’t know why they assumed stuffs. Hear that you were sensitive and i broke the news to you ! But you were able to handle stuff and even calm me down ! and my answer is IDON’TKNOW ! i ust want things to be like how it has to be. If its meant to be it will be! and i guess it would be ! 

Things are just so tied up with nakshatra and our efforts will all be payed off!

hope, it happens.

I know it hasn’t been long since I last saw you my dear,
But to me it feels as long as five hundred year.
I miss you to the point I am loosing all sanity,
There has to be an end to all this calamity.

I think of you every second and every breath,
For you I would stare even into the face of death.
To kiss your lips is to taste the sweetness of love,
And it brings forth feelings from the heavens above.

To look into your eyes is to gaze into the sky,
So beautiful with the stars and the heavens inside.
To see your smile is to see the divine,
This poem is for you, sweet love of mine.

My dear, I just can’t stop thinking of you and i do not know if its the thing called LOVE ! But i hope it would be !

MAYAAAA- i’m falling to your music !

BEST FRIEND <3

In the end, it just ended with your best friend not understanding you ! thats the most shittiest thing! but i still think that i had the right to do it ! after all it was about me and no one else. i said it cause i went through the pain and i know how it feels like.

its just hard to see your friendship break apart. and when the blame comes to you. i am just lost for now and i dont wanna lose you in my life! hope you read this and i’m really sorry !

I STILL LOVE YOU MY BEST FRIEND!